Monday, September 07, 2009 ohhyeah there's something that i always wanna tell you. I'm not very sure why you call yourself nameless. but just wanna tell ya, to God, you're the treasured one, unique and special in His eyes. When ya feel nobody cares, He cares. Though we lose some on this Earth, we have gained so much more in Christ (: so yeah :D jiayoujiayoujiayoujiayou. here's a song for ya, I always sing this to myself whenever i feel uncertain about the things that is ahead of me. This song tells us that though uncertain the path may be, we can rest in perfect peace because He's in control. (: when life's burdens get so heavy and it seems I'm alone I cast my eyes on Jesus and come boldly to His throne and i find His grace sufficient when His promises I heed for his very life His sacrifice and He lives to intercede He is the Lord of Lords and when He speaks winds and waves obey and when Jesus whispers peace be still and darkness turns to day and as I'm trusting in my saviour's word doubts and fears all cease and beneath the shelter of His wings I'm at rest in perfect peace we'll go to ikea someday after your BMT :D let's look forward for tt :)to my dearest brother-in-Christ (: wanna thank ya for being such a great friend and brother all these while. Thank God for teaching me so much through you. Through your labour of love and how God transformed your love. I believe that He is always teaching us new things, moulding us more and more like Him each day. Its gonna be a new chapter for you tomorrow onwards. Its gonna be a challenging journey, but definitely an enriching one :D jiayou kay. You'll be shining for Christ in your camp :D and its a good opportunity to reach out to the lost (: 
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Your will will not lead me where Your grace cannot keep me.
Your hand will protect me, I rest in Your care.
Thank God for the trials and testings to push me to my limits.
Many times, facing with an obstacle ahead of me, or i would say a challenge, I would question myself, do i wanna be a fighter in this race, or let this chance of helping me in becoming a better person slip away. I would say, often times, i wish that i could stop running. to stop running this race, cos the pain is just too much for me to bear. . . sometimes, we would also question, why is there so much pain around. but after all the complaining, never did we realise that He has given us pain so that we could appreciate those lil joyful moments more and experience the true meaning of it.
" WE ONLY START APPRECIATING WHAT WE HOLD IN OUR HANDS AFTER WE KNOW THE DIFFERENCE" dont you agree with me ? (:
dear GOD, continue to teach me to be more like You each day, to appreciate every creation, everything that You have given me.
He has made everything beautiful in its time
Ecclesiastes 3:11
fai-to (:
Sunday, June 21, 2009
this feels like a dream.
if it was a dream, i wished that i'll not wake up from it ((:
woke up in the morning and realised that i overslept :S supposed to meet chinyang, anand and the rest at kallang to go to ecp to run in the morn. oops. i guess i need that few more hours of sleep after a long talk with rainbow last night.
the interesting thing, after i woke up, i felt like i was a whole new person. i felt so refreshed, like a load of burden off my shoulders. indeed God answers prayers. days before i've been praying that God will remove whatever fears i have in me, and the things i was troubled about. eventually, God led me back to this word, " contentment " looking back, i had whatever i don't deserve in my hands. Especially those who have shown me their unconditional love and always there in good times and bad times. having a place to stay without having expected for things in return is just so wonderful, and having such a loving father at home is something i never imagined that i can ever have (:
happy fathers' day to ahpa and daddy. guess i shld make a card and send it over to him. wonder what his response wld be like (: but i can always try. maybe things between might get better.
to daddy: thanks for all you've done for me. be it some thing great or small, i remembered them all. thanks for leaving me with such wonderful memories of us going to macdonalds every sunday morning for breakfast and going to the arcade with korkor in marina square. though all of it may seemed short or long-forgotten, in the end, they are still the ones that will be kept closely to the heart <3 i love you.
after reading rainbow's blog these couple of days. i realised that sometimes things arent as simple as it seemed to be. and i never seemed to understand it till today.
many a times, we thought we understood something or someone. but the question is, did we really think deep enough of what others are going through? i guess we all know the answer.
what struck me most was the word " balance " in the post. " balance " is what we all seek to achieve. even though we will never seemed to be able to reach it but at least we can try working close to it. just as i thought about me trying to balance schoolwork, life on my own, friends, running, often times i feel that there's so many things to do but so lil time ---> unlimited wants and limited time. what i learnt is that things could be better if one really take a step back to think of what another person is going through. saying that " I know, I understand" is not gonna help. cos the fact is i don't really understand and really mean what i say. yesterday, i was feeling so much pain in my heart, cos i had that unwanted feeling again, at the same time, i was trying to accept the things i can't change. but today, i realised that i don't have to cos, what is this pain compared to what He bore for us on the cross and have I understood the pain He had went through. and why do I have to feel unwanted when i have the love i needed all along. it was in my hands, but i've failed to see it.
to rainbow:
applying this to whatever that has happened. i believe that i really do understand what you're going through now. really. i know it hasn't been easy for ya. dont give up ((:
its gonna be a lonely fathers' day...
will it be?
i'm not too sure.
will stop waiting, stop hoping...
Saturday, June 20, 2009
One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets offootprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and hequestioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to followyou, you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."
The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."
* Your love is my beginning and I know it wont be too long till I see You.
happy fathers' day daddy (:
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
In the twinkling stars that dance like fireflies
In the blushing fruit that hangs upon the vine
In the face of a baby as he forms his first smile
I see you
In the whisper of the wind's soft lullaby
In the laughter and the roar of the rushing tide
In the song of a sparrow as he takes his first flight
I hear you
Why do you hide among the nameless and forgotten
Why do you walk along these long forsaken roads
Calling to me in the hungry and the homeless
Calling me to water your thirst
So I'll give you my heart and my song
In a world where so much is right
But so much is wrong
Your love is my beginning and I know it won't be too long
Till I see you
Why do you hide among the nameless and forgotten
Why do you walk along these long forsaken roads
Calling to me in the hungry and the homeless
Calling me to water your thirst
So I'll give you my heart and my song
In a world where so much is right
But so much is wrong
Your love is my beginning and I know it won't be too long
Till I see you, I hear you, I love you
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
free
I see the morning glory
It winds upon the tree
It tells the untold story of how things were meant to be
You saw the universe
Caught up in desperate dreams
You came and changed the ending
Changed it to save my fate
You led the revolution
You left your legacy
Embraced the struggle in the face of mortality
I know I'm not alone in this
Help me believe
I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains
It's still the same old story
This great divide
Between the want and waste
And all the hunger inside
I heard the news today
Now I'm trying to find my place
I'm just a single voice
What can I do to erase
All this misunderstanding
All this anarchy
Six degrees of separation
Sometimes it's so hard to see
That we are not alone in this
I need to believe
I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains
Sunday, June 07, 2009
"In all these things we are more than conquerors—through him who loved us!" Romans 8:37
*i can conquer this pain